It wasn’t ok to sit down and do nothing. It’s how I remember it on many occasions.
Why aren’t I cooking? Or cleaning?
Why am I not looking for a way to contribute?
Sitting still felt wrong and wasteful.
When I was 23, I came home to my parents house after a long day of work with lots of driving, to an empty house. A while later, someone came home and asked “WHY AREN’T YOU COOKING DINNER”??
Something in me snapped! This interaction was what pushed me to move out of the house and get my own apartment.
Fast forward, and for the past several weeks I have been getting messages to REST, RECHARGE, RELAX. Messages that there are seasons to shine, and seasons for introspection and quiet. This is my season to standstill I am told.
But yet I resist!! I push back. I question. I ask for clarifying messages – you mean REALLY sit my a$$ down!? That can’t be right. There is so much to do and so little time.
And then I think about my conditioning. I think about the things that have stayed with me after all this time.
Stillness. It’s not always easy, but it is necessary. It’s not always comfortable, but it is the flow of life.
Is it time for you to be still?
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